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Wednesday, October 31, 2007, 11:15 PM
conclusion I: CY is definitely a GIRL's material. conclusion II: the after-effects he gives, invades the mind. my ear fckin hurts. it makes ma head feel heavy. haiz. mummy thinks am an abnormal creature. :x my mind. or rather my heart. chooses not to let go of the incident tad happened in the morning. i aint gonna let it go for u juz degraded me n my frenz. if i am gonna revert back the words to u. i noe. u aren't gonna react. simply u're prideless. get it straight. din ur mummy teach u? how to respect people's feelings? both of u. the species of the same kind. tad's the reason why. everyone else anti both of u. the words are flowing. but i aint gonna continue. for ur substandard brain. nth would hit in there. i'm wasting ma time and energy. |
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, 2:33 PM
it's an ideal day today.
a perfect team - makes life so much easier in sch. nesha.durian boy.hafizah. superb!! durian boy is a magnet. he attracts all the girls ard him. && he's amazing, amusing and attractive!! we got so touchy with him. experimenting on him. his weak spots. his smile. his eyes. whoaa! HAWT STUFF... i noe. he felt the heat rising. he chose to conceal his feelings :D weird fantasies are taking over my mind! :x was rather pissed in the morning. c'mon. ur fckin racism is gettin me annoyed. it aint funny when u do, it irritates the shit out of me. i can throw back the comments at u about ur race, but i'm mindful about the others ard me. unlike u. if u think u can't handle ur words about indians, just tell us, and we will ignore u. just a piece of advise: dun go ard saying it too loud, coz u neva noe which indian guy will come bashing u up! |
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Tuesday, October 30, 2007, 10:58 PM
another heartbreaking news reaches my ears.
it disturbed and troubled my heart. i am in no place to judge wad happened. but who ever who did this to u; they will deserve their punishment. both from the law and God. the doctors have gave u a time of 24 hours. battle against the time and gain back consciousness i hope u see the light soon. pls wake up. i dun wan to lose u. html again. it will soon rupture my blood vessels in my brains. |
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, 11:13 AM
it's Tuesday morning blues which made me influence shakthee and fairose.
&& being nice friends, they joined me. semester two gives me that 'chow class feeling' terribly. i feel like dropping out sch. sometimes, i think i landed myself into the wrong course. science makes me go nuts. sadly, i will not be able to withdraw from sch nor quit the course and enter some other course..my dad will kill me. i will motivate myself to go sch properly from tmr onwards. i promise! yesterday nite, wadeva u said. it made me wanna chop u into pieces and feed u to the lions!! tad's how pissed i was. haiz. but then again. no point telling u coz u will never realize. |
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Monday, October 29, 2007, 8:15 PM
finally i got ma hair done.
yipeee. another damage to ma dad's account. i feel bad. but... well.. ok guilty consciousness. francis left me such a nice comment which almost made me tear. "Haruna/Guitar Woman and Boyfriend Abuser, hope there are no more condone/condome incidents (ha!ha!ha!)!! On a personal note, I too will miss you. Unfortunately, I have to move on (will tell you why if I get the chance). Hey cheer up. You are making it difficult for me too because I am also sad as I genuinely like and care for everyone in the class. However, once when you have the first class with your new faci, it will be like I was never there. That is the last lesson I will impart, life goes on. I wish you the very best for your future. Take care."I will miss u. despite the corny-ness and horny-ness. u have taught me loads of values. i definitely agree that life goes on. if my life didn't move on, i wouldn't know where i would be rite now. nevertheless when the new faci comes, whether he is a great faci, or a hopeless one. u will stay in my mind always. for such a cool teacher. love u. miss u. back to the html webpage. it's screwing my marbles, narendaren!! ): |
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Sunday, October 28, 2007, 9:16 PM
shopping spree. it came and it went.
if only it could last longer. damn the rain. u had to come in at the wrong moment spoil the fun. despite that. from 1 to 4. i shopped till i almost drop dead. it was simply fabulous. well..... i caused a damage of $450. (that's only 3/4 of my shopping. i still have 1/4 left which will be done this coming friday) but i have my sponsor!! MY DADDY!! wad more can i say?! I AM DADDY'S LITTLE PRINCESS. :D **i'm going thailand this december!! i can't wait!! SHOPPING HERE I COME AGAIN!!!!** while waiting for the rain to stop today, we were at Blue Diamond, having coffee break. there were these two HOT guys sitting to the table next to me. cute! i must emphasize. ahah. one of them was conversing so emotionally when he almost blurt out a vulgarity. i overheard it by accident and gave him a "i heard that dearie! u're not supposed to say that in such a place" look!! && there! I SAW HIM BLUSHING!!! wad a magnificent sight!! hehehe... :D :D :D :D well. i down with flu now. thanKs to da blardy rain. & i'm helping naren to do some html webpage. which seems HARD! i better be rewarded.. OR I'LL BREAK HIS MOTTAI HEAD! ~aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh chhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooooo~ |
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Saturday, October 27, 2007, 8:19 PM
thanks darling. although it was only 2 hours. it was lovely.
i realized. the love grows abundantly despite the absence of you around me. ~kannae kannil khadal vaithu yennai kolathey~ i can't wait for tomorrow. shopping spree!!!! i'm gonna shop till i drop dead. hehehe. :D && i've decided to skip sch on monday. means. i'll be missing chemistry :D i don't feel guilty about skipping sch! because my presence or my absence in that horrible terrible class doesn't make a difference. i don't want Francis to leave ): he's such a nice teacher. but he's got his reasons. thus, i shall not make him feel guilty about leaving. i will miss u, cher. i hope to see you around some time soon. the friendship's getting superficial. i can see it. i can feel it. somehow, u & i, we're different in all ways. i'll juz be ur 'superficial' friend. ~memories are sumthing that cant be erased. unless u have the will to do it it can be forgotten but cant be erased totally~ |
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Thursday, October 25, 2007, 6:41 PM
I miss you. my days seem long without you. my nights seem longer without you. baby, please meet me soon. missed school today. I feel guilty about lying to u. I’m sorry. but I have my reasons. :x |
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Wednesday, October 24, 2007, 8:10 PM
anger.frustration.gloomy.puzzled.delighted. Where do I lie in all of these thoughts Where do my feelings drag me towards Are they pushing ahead, making me go forward Or are they holding me back, unable to go on I'm unsure of what to think or feel in the day Unsure if whether to smile or cry in the night Lost and confused, unable to understand a blend of every emotion. a little bit of this and a little bit of that. it's making me go insane. i wanna be just me, not a mystified soul. something is bothering the little heart of mine. deep down there, i know that's the cause of this stir of feelings, but unknown to me is that something. maybe if i just scream it all out, it will disappear. will it? sometimes, i wish i could 'poof' into thin air to isolate myself from the surrounding. i miss my Pooh bear. the day isn't complete without you. somehow u just make me feel like a special kid (: coincidentally i banged into a long lost 'friend' on the way back home. he looks way different from the last time i saw him, character-wise and looks-wise. i'm happy that u changed dearie. (: in someway, our 'catchin up' brought back the past. how childish we were - the good secondary sch days. i'm glad that we're still friends after all that silly stuff. we're meant to be like tad. & i accept the reality. ahaaha. it amuses me how small the world can get? my teddybear boyfriend studies with your lovely girlfriend. they know each other. :x it's a weird link that i will neva want to imagine. u'll be in my mind always as a good friend. (: *evil grins* i feel relieved after telling everyone about the 'bitches'. keke. the msg that my love sent me, it definitely brightened up my day. i understand ur situation sayang. i will wait till the day comes. after all, i'm all urs. i wun run away :p i miss you. loads. more than u noe. |
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the post without a title
Tuesday, October 23, 2007, 8:10 PM
there isn't a title to this post. i dunno why.
haven't been feeling like -haRuna- today. somethings just weren't rite. & i din appreciate the fact that he has to blare at me for no reason. he might think that it was a piece of advise, thanK u. but it wasn't necessary. we are on different paces of life although we're on the same path. u wouldn't know what is ma pace like~learn to give in on certain issues~like this. ma love, appreciate that u know that i said it for ur own good. (: thaNks. i feel horrible for not being there. but i noe if i had been there,i wouldn't be able to see what was happening.i'm sorry. may ur soul rest in piece. can i drop out of sch. the mind's gettin dumb and lazy each day. i need ur hugs and kisses as a form of encouragement. the more u give, the more am motivated...  *valkai oru naadaga maedai. athil nee naa yavarum nadigargal* |
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Tragic!
Monday, October 22, 2007, 8:26 PM
How much worse can this day get?
I had to face so many unwanted idiots today. && i start wondering what has the Indian community become into? a group of aimless, hopeless zombies? to the bitch out there, who spoiled my lunch, and ma sweetie's mood! u maybe older than us! but sadly, god din give a mature brain to suit ur age. c'mon! i tot these "pleasant activities" were supposed to be left behind in secondary school when u graduated.. Oops! i forgot, u dun have a mature brain to dispose this characteristic. to the ass who commented on ma cutie pie. couldn't u see there were two other pathetic girls following ur directionless path. go remark them with ur fruitless comments. stuuuuupiid jackass. somehow i just know, that ppl like u are totally "the cannot make it" case. u guys aren't even worth to be given birth to! to the donation fcuker, i better not see u again. or i'll just spit on ur damn fugly face. u have no blardy rites to question me!! argh!! damn! i'm simply incensed with these assholes. C'mon ppl! pls. GET A LIFE, SERIOUSLY. OH WAIT! U BRAINLESS PESTS ALREADY HAVE A LIFE WHICH IS OF NO USE! SO ITS TYM FOR YA'LL TO GET A BETTER ONE. trust me! A WAY BETTER ONE!! ~sweet times~ i really had a great time today. it was such a sweet one. da bitching, the cam-whoring... was perrrfect! i love my darlings. i feel loved being around them. we shud have more of these sessions. *p.s* to the all time - bitch of the bitches - u really suck at whatever u are trying to do. STOP it!!, coz it juz makes ur reputation go down the big longkang!!!! the sight of u, makes me wanna tear and rip u into pieces.** ~sweetheart. i juz want u to noe. i will be there for u at all times. i always want to see the bright side of you! && i know u will be okay soon! |
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Life's a Bitch
, 9:26 AM
Life's a TOTAL bitch! It's not fair that this had to Happen. I am very sorry for ur loss. I wonder how's life gonna be now for you? But there isn't much we can do beyond the fate that beholds our life. Then again, I'm questioning.. Y? This shouldn't have happened!! Haiz.. I hope u will be fine. |
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If only I had a gun.
Sunday, October 21, 2007, 6:37 PM
 i'm so bloody effin' pissed rite now. there was this fuckin ugly indian guy who annoyed me on MSN. i wonder how this bastards have ma email add. he was a bloody pervert. somehow, it was good tad he approached me. coz i managed to vent out all ma anger on him. eheh! he went on yakin about SEX. and i simply told him "for ur kind information, u're gonna be blocked in a few seconds. bye. MOTHERFUCKIN' bastard!". If only i could shoot down this bastards, it would help Singapore save some land that these useless assholes are occupying. Or simply shoot off their dicks!! then they wouldn't be able to imagine banging any innocent girl! *like me* Shoot them down!!! Then came my adorable CHICKEN. *c.s*. he entertained me quite a while, before disappearing while i was away. he was so cute to defend his family of chickens. aha. ~i feel bad about having his relatives for dinner.~ eheh. i cant wait to go sch tmr. damn! it takes so blardy long for monday to come. But then again, tmr ma class sucks big tym. I will only survive on the tot tad i have ma Sweeties to survive. |
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the new way to express it all
, 3:35 PM
Thanks to Nurimah, my Savior. I have a new blog!
I appreciate your help Sayang. I LOVE YOU, GURL! I realized there are so many things that i keep to myself, unable to express them out. I hope the words that I type expresses my feelings. I never really liked blogging by the way, I'll try to keep up with the posting. ehe. For now, boredom is driving me nuts. i might juz kill someone anytime due to boredom. ~ I can't wait to go to sch tmr to see my pretty darlings. :D |