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Monday, May 26, 2008, 11:35 AM
there hasn't been any motivation blog lately.
must be the intense 'mugging' on FYP. oh wait! i just learnt today that mugging means robbing. francis (ex-MCB facilitator) was a 'sweetheart' to enlighten me. so all the while, i have been using the wrong terms to let everyone know that i have been working hard. moving on, i tried starting on my report. but to no avail. either massive stonage or chatting takes place. you can't blame me, both stoning and chatting beats writing a dumb report. eventually 2 in the morning, i managed to get the cover page done. good start isn't it?! *dear lord, please forgive me for all these sins that i commit. i'm trying to change over into a new leaf* did i mention, i attained a new position - the in-house temporary maid!! mummy sent back the maid for good. which means i am stuck with the chores. it isn't easy, especially washing the dishes after dinner. the huge amount of plates, pots, glasses. turns my baby smooth hands into some rough monsterous hands. =( oh well, it's time to start learning so that i'll be a good wife in future (: && i feel rather GUILTY about skipping pharmacotheraphy all the time. thanks to the beautiful comment my facilitator gave me. 'Hi Haruna I am surprised why you are so irregular to class now a days .I believe you should be more serious about your studies in third year.' i wish to tell her - i'll try to attend your classes more often if you could ensure your classes aren't god damn boring -_-" am neither here or there. just leaving me hanging. i'm happier. |
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Thursday, May 22, 2008, 9:02 AM
 THE CHAMPIONS OF ENGLAND! THE KINGS OF EUROPE! oh yea! we've done it, and we did it again! GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED!   21.05.08 - Manchester United vs Chelsea after nearly 3 hours, we, YES WE, Manchester United Football Club, have been crowned the Champions. but, i must agree, fighting Chelsea wasn't easy. it only made us more edgy. us here refering to me, my brothers, dad, nasri, c.s, vanan. all the msgs, the phone calls. whoa! my fingers would have chipped of from all that sms-ing. not forgetting, the conference call (nasri, c.s and me) during the penalty shot. c.s was literally orgasming on the phone. all the heavy breathing and blowing on the phone. hehe. the lack of sleep the whole night makes me more hyper today. prolly, i'll wither towards the end of the day. before i end of the this post. GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED! HIP HIP HURRAY FOR THE RED DEVILS!!
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Tuesday, May 20, 2008, 8:57 AM
 i watch my simple world turning upside down. and there's nothing which i can do about it. i'm avoiding the harsh reality. i choose to just push everything aside and move on with my life. trying to mend everything and live a 'perfect' life.
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Saturday, May 17, 2008, 11:41 PM
all i want and wish for right now, is to just go back in time.
change some things and wish it never happens again. i used to think, this major turning points were learning experiences that made me a better person. then again, if it never happened, i could be a happier person now. i don't get it. the days that i am feeling happy and light seems shorter or rather doesn't last any longer compared to the days where my heart feels heavy and the need to snuggle into someone. it was a long, tiring day today. thanks to global warming, each day has been getting hotter. we are all eventually going to die due to heat stroke. trust me. apart from that, we didn't complete the assigned task today due the reason stated above. ended up chilling out Kallang Leisure Park. pretty interesting conversations we shared. conversations which made us go through the achives of our lives. questions which made us think back and laugh about it. i realised no matter how much you long for one special companion, nothing can beat the companion of the friends you have. cause friends will be there always. enough said. i'm hitting the bed soon. prolly having a long day tomorrow as well. should start working on my report. thank god, monday's a holiday. ((: on a seperate note. awaiting the season finale of Gossip Girl. ((: |
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Thursday, May 15, 2008, 10:26 PM
i found myself unable to sleep throughout the whole night.
despite the lack of sleep, i was in total hype mode throughout the morning. must be the new phone, i think. journey to school was fun, thanks to Rosey. our one and only source of entertainment for all ages. ((: *she's going to kill me, i know it.* amalina and i literally played with her mind, to the very extent, people around were staring at us directly. they must have been thinking, how could this poor girl endure these two monkeys. can u imagine, me clinging to the arm of rosey while she's holding the handle thingy in the mrt. she can be my huge giant tree, while me the small adorable cute monkey. like i said rosey. you cant live without us, neither can you live with us. :P lesson was total drag, but breaks were cool. nasri has been corrupting me with all his silly dirty jokes. && no it doesn't work on me, i am still innocent. it's him who interprets everything dirty and wrong. but nasri, i'll be grateful to u for the rest of my life if you buy me that scarf. i can totally imagine us walking. nope parading around RP proudly. *chanting GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED* the hype mode died off towards the end of the day. was suffering from a throbbing migraine. will post the pictures from our little camwhore session sooner or later. blogger is being a bitch rite now. ((: |
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Wednesday, May 14, 2008, 11:19 PM
haruna is officially a very happy, delighted girl as of now.
thanks to her dearest parents. who bought her the handphone she always wanted. Thank You So Much, Mummy, Daddy!! ok there isn't much to update for these few days. Kallang River field trip got called off due to the heavy rain today. thus, there'll be an outing on Saturday. ok, moving on. i'm very much depressed that Gossip Girl is ending. if only i could, i'd kill Geogina for making Serena's life so miserable. a few hot pictures i stumbled upon on the net.   
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Tuesday, May 13, 2008, 2:51 PM
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Gossip Girl Episode 17 is out!! all the much awaited suspense, drama.the anticipation. Here we go, girls (: Episode 17. Love.Love. |
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Sunday, May 11, 2008, 8:40 PM
Happy Mother's Day! to All the Beautiful Mums in the World. a small tribute to all the mothers. BEING A MOTHER... After 17 years of marriage, my wife wanted me totake another woman out to dinner and a movie. She said, 'I love you, but I know this other woman lovesyou and would love to spend some time with you.' * * * The other woman that my wife wanted me to visitwas my MOTHER, who has been alone for 20 years,but the demands of my work and my two boys hadmade it possible to visit her only occasionally. * * * That night I called to invite her to go out for dinner and a movie. * * * 'What's wrong, aren't you well,' she asked? * * * My mother is the type of woman who suspects that alate night call or a surprise invitation is a sign of bad news. * * * 'I thought it would be pleasant to spend sometime with you,' I responded. 'Just the two of us.'She thought about it for a moment, and then said,'I would like that very much.' * * * That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick her up I was a bit nervous.When I arrived at herhouse, I noticed that she, too, seemed to be nervousabout our date. She waited in the door. She had curled her hair and waswearing the dress that she had worn to celebrate her lastbirthday on November 19th. * * * She smiled from a face that was as radiant as an angels. 'I told my friends that I was going to goout with my son, and they were impressed,' she said,as she got into that new white van. 'They can't wait to hear about ourdate'. * * * We went to a restaurant that, although notelegant, was very nice and cozy. My mother took my arm as if she were the First Lady. After we satdown, I had to read the menu. Her eyes could onlyread large print. Half way through the entries, Ilifted my eyes and saw Mom sitting there staring at me. A nostalgic smile was on her lips. 'It was Iwho used to have to read the menu when you weresmall,' she said. 'Then it's time that you relax andlet me return the favor,' I responded. * * * During the dinner, we had an agreeable conversation- nothing extraordinary but catching upon recent events of each other's life. We talked somuch that we missed the movie. * * * As we arrived at her house later, she said, 'I'll go out with you again, but only if you let me inviteyou.' I agreed. * * * 'How was your dinner date ?' asked my wife when Igot home.'Very nice. Much more so than I could have imagined,' I answered. * * * A few days later, my mother died of a massiveheart attack. It happened so suddenly that I didn't have a chance to do anything for her. * * * Some time later, I received an envelope with acopy of a restaurant receipt from the same placemother and I had dined. An attached note said: 'Ipaid this bill in advance. I wasn't sure that I could be there; but nevertheless, I paid for two plates - one for you and the other for your wife.You will never know what that night meant for me. I love you, son.' * * * At that moment, I understood the importance of saying in time: 'I LOVE YOU' and to give our lovedones the time that they deserve. Nothing in life ismore important than your family. Give them the timethey deserve, because these things cannot be put off till 'some other time.' * * * Somebody said it takes about 6 weeks to get backto normal after you've had a baby.... somebody doesn't know that once you're a mother, 'normal' is history. * * * Somebody said you learn how to be a mother byinstinct... somebody never took a three-year-old shopping. * * * Somebody said being a mother is boring....somebody never rode in a car driven by a teenager with a driver's permit. Somebody said if you're a' good' mother,your child will 'turn out good'....somebody thinks a child comes withdirections and a guarantee. * * * Somebody said you don't need an education to be amother.... somebody never helped a fourth graderwith his math. * * * Somebody said you can't love the second child as much as you love the first.... somebody doesn't have two children. * * * Somebody said the hardest part of being a motheris labor and delivery....somebody never watched her 'baby' get on the busfor the first day of kindergarten ...or on a plane headed for military 'boot camp.' * * * Somebody said a mother can stop worrying after herchild gets married....somebody doesn't know thatmarriage adds a new son or daughter-in- law to amother's heartstrings. * * * Somebody said a mother's job is done when her last child leaves home....somebody never had grandchildren. * * * Somebody said your mother knows you love her, soyou don't need to tell her.... somebody isn't a mother..  Mummy, without you. I'd be noone now. && I thank God endlessly for you being with me, as my friend, my mother, my guardian angel, my everything. I Love You Mummy. To the bits and pieces of my heart!
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Saturday, May 10, 2008, 4:01 PM
I'm most likely living a lie right now.
On the outside, I appear to be so together, so alright, so happy, so sure of myself. Well, I must be a damn good actress, because I'm sure as hell not. I'm a complete mess inside. I haven't had a good night sleep in days. It's beacause my life is a mess. I haven't been a good daughter nor a sister, I'm not doing well in school, I have been ignoring the closest ones. I'm insecure about myself, and on top of all that I'm in love. Oh wait, I ain't even sure if Love is the right word here? He leaves me hanging, leading me nowhere. This is my only escape, and it's failing me right now. I really don't give a damn if I sound like a whiny teenager. I really don't care if you think I sound emo, I really had to get this out of my system. So I'm living a facade; does that really matter? So I'm hiding my true personality; is it really that important? |
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Wednesday, May 7, 2008, 11:48 PM
a pretty long day. nevertheless, filled with so much of laughter.
made my first destination to the polyclinic in the morning. followed my grandma for a monthly check-up. *aren't i such a good grand-daughter* i should add in the fact that shopping with my grandmummy was fun. we shopped for some household stuff. and i bought myself two bags for $25. later on rushed down to Kallang Leisure Park to meet my dearest FYP team. had quite a bad experience walking alone along the secluded pathway towards Kallang Stadium. freaking deprived construction workers!! chilled out at Starbucks, and then made our way to Jurong East. and mister.Nasri totally abandoned us by getting off at City Hall, when he was suppose to follow us for lunch at Jurong East. Nasri, i'll never forgive you for this! ended up, shakthee and i met this new friend of mine and his group of friends. pretty interesting and funny people. i have never laughed so much while eating before. nearly puked my food. and thank you, sheik for that pretty straw flower. ((: took cab home which came out to be $23. that was my pocket money for two days. ): haiz, money flies away just like that. moving on, i haven't been attending class properly due to the breakdown of my immune system and never-ending laziness. i need more motivation to get my ass to class. anyone willing to help? |
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Tuesday, May 6, 2008, 12:31 AM
in desperate need of clones of the one and only haruna.
anyone who think they might be able to help, pls do let me know. FYP is a total bitch. i keep wondering why on fcuking earth do we have to investigate the fcuking kallang river. it's as if there aren't people in the government bodies to do that. and reading the bloody map kills the remaining brain cells that i have left. i'll stop complaining here. but no doubts, i can go on and on. non-stop. it was a beautiful day today. the wonderful time we spent together. let alone the rotting session with amalina, shakthee, shamini. if only today never ended, life would equate to perfect happiness. perfecto plans made by us for the next outing on Friday. wHeee! i can't wait.. shopping first!! :P you made my day with that few words that i have always wanted to hear. ((: |
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Sunday, May 4, 2008, 1:49 PM
explain to me, what you're trying to prove.
you leave me in a daze, trying to solve the puzzle myself. honey, all i'm asking from you is some form of acknowledgement. is it that hard, baby? tell me.. i can't elaborate how much i loathe saturdays and sundays - excluding the sleeping hours. how much i try to keep myself occupied, i end up locking myself in the room. thinking about the most unnecessary/unwanted things. *mental note to myself* deepthinking is bad for health. right now, i'm supposed to be working on my FYP logbook and student portal. yet to have touched anything and i don't think i'll be. in courtesy of the infectious disease called Laziness. on a random note. i can't wait for Gossip Girl's next episode. hehe. received this mail a few days back && i think it's beautiful. Once upon a time there was this girl who had four boyfriends. She loved the 4th boyfriend the most and adored him with richrobes and treated him to the finest of delicacies. She gave him nothing but the best. She also loved the 3rd boyfriend very much and was always showing him off to neighboring kingdoms. However, she feared that one day he would leave her for another. She also loved her 2nd boyfriend. He was her confidant and was always kind, considerate and patient with her. Whenever this girl faced a problem, she could confide in him, and he would help her getthrough the difficult times. The girl's 1st boyfriend was a very loyal partner and had made great contributions in maintaining her wealth and kingdom. However,she did not love the first boyfriend. Although he loved her deeply,she hardly took notice of him! One day, the girl fell ill and she knew her time was short. She thought of her luxurious life and wondered, I now have four boyfriends with me, but when I die, I'll be all alone. Thus, she asked the 4th boyfriend, 'I loved you the most,endowed you with the finest clothing and showered great care over you. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company? ''No way!' replied the 4th boyfriend and he walked away withoutanother word. His answer cut like a sharp knife right into her heart. The sad girl then asked the 3rd boyfriend, 'I loved you all my life. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company? ''No!' replied the 3rd boyfriend. 'Life is too good! When you die, I'm going to marry someone else!' Her heart sank and turned cold. She then asked the 2nd boyfriend, 'I have always turned to youfor help and you've always been there for me. When I die, will you follow me and keep me company? ''I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!' replied the 2ndboyfriend. 'At the very most, I can only walk with you to your grave.' His answer struck her like a bolt of lightning, and the girl was devastated. Then a voice called out: 'I'll go with you. I'll follow you no matter where you go.'The girl looked up, and there was his first boyfriend. He was very skinny as he suffered from malnutrition and neglect. Greatly grieved, the girl said, 'I should have taken much better care of you when I had the chance! In truth, you have 4 boyfriends in your lives: Your 4th boyfriend is your body. No matter how much time andeffort you lavish in making it look good, it will leave you when you die. Your 3rd boyfriend is your possessions, status and wealth. When you die, it will all go to others. Your 2nd boyfriend is your family and friends. No matter howmuch they have been there for you, the furthest they can stay by youis up to the grave. And your 1st boyfriend is your Soul, often neglected in pursuit of wealth, power and pleasures of the world. However, your Soul is the only thing that will follow you where ever you go. Cultivate, strengthen and cherish it now, for it is theonly part of you that will follow you to the throne of God and continue with you throughout Eternity. Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect. It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections. |
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Thursday, May 1, 2008, 11:50 PM
 just finished watching Gossip Girl episode 15. i can't effin believe Nate & Vanessa. O.M.G i'm so bloody jealous, it's so not meant to be!! awaiting the next episode. things are getting heated up. not forgetting the bitch Georgina. i simply despise her! on a random note. won't it be great if we had more of chuck and nate kinda hotties roaming around RP? haha. i'm wishing.   doesn't johann resemble abit of Nate!! **hussshhhh* don't tell him!! i don't want to end up hurting us. let me go. we'll be better off, trust me. i'm too afraid to take the next step, honey.
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