maybe. it's not that hard after all. cause only i seem to make it difficult.
i'm sorry.

there isn't much happening right now more than the frequent meetings with boyfriend.
yes, you read it perfectly right. by frequent i mean twice/thrice in a week.
don't be surprised, well, pretend not to be. cause i'm trying to pull it off normally.
i mean, i can't ask for anymore than this and i feel so drunk in love.
really. that few hours, even the most retarded things that he does, it overwhelms me (:

right, i'm not supposed to get mushy.

so back to today.
boyfriend woke me up at 11 so that i could make my way to his workplace.
being me, i delayed and ended up there around 2.
the fear of getting lost somewhere in science park was a major bother.
i'm a girl and i have bad sense of directions. i admit.
but it doesn't help when the person directing you suck as well.
eventually i found my way and the first thing my dearest toot said when he saw me, 'you look antique, like you're in the eighties.' grrr.
did i mention, i bought him two tongue thingy. i don't know what's it called? bar-bell? how do you spell it?
this is where i should mention, i finished my pay too (: within a day.
back to the point.
we went off to our usual hangout, spent some 'quality' time for two hours.
it's time we find a new hangout!!
we had early dinner before parting on our own ways.

i think we might meet again on saturday. =P might.

& tomorrow. another day of mundane routine plus tuition.
the only good thing is. it's pay day, baby! (:



i fall in ♥ with you, over and over again.

the stars and moon are in its right places right now.
time for an update!!

thursday.
boyfriend and i made major plans the night before. catch a movie, lunch, shopping, etc.
it ended up in a random outing with praveena and raj. (:
finally, after like what seemed ages, we met the both of them.
the usual hangout and the usual activities. :P
and as always, we had so much of fun. (in all ways). ahem.ahem.

saturday.
yeap yeap!! again the four of us!
just that this time it was at Sentosa.
although the outing was planned much longer ago, the plan to have a mini picnic was random.
and i loved it!!
the time spent, the games played, the fun we had, the cam-whoring session (:
and hopefully, next week, together with rosey, shakthee and titus, we'll all go to the night safari! ((:

pictures! the lazy way (:


if only i had more control over my emotions.

i love you, now and forever.
and i'm not sure if i had told you this.
i love the way you try to make this relationship perfect.
i couldn't ask for more.
the happiness you give me each time with simple words and gestures.
all i ask now. is an eternity with you, sweetheart.
i love you.

i love you. i hope it sums it up all. (:

thanks to the cold weather, i've been sneezing more than ever now. wish i could replace my sensitive nose. grrr. not to mention, my mum's sick too. and when i called rosey in the noon, she sounded like sick chicken too. such a nice climate to stay in bed yet a handful of illness comes knocking on the door too.

my brother has been attending Manchester United Soccer School for his soccer training this whole week. I'm appointed to company him to tampines safra in the afternoons. and that's how i got drenched on monday. i guess, regardless of rain and shine, they still train all those young boys and girls. then there was tuition too. i was literally on the verge of killing that kid. maybe like flung him out the window from the 5th storey. really, the temptations were that high. i mean, how rude can a 11 year old get. giving sarcastic remarks to every comment i had on his homework. even if it was meant as a joke, i wasn't really in the mood to kid around that day. i wish, the smack that i left on his lap could have been on his face.

on a random note, i keep hearing this weird sound every night. it's the sound of shaking a bottle of beans. oh well, i've been ignoring it quite well and will continue to do so.

i'm craving for chocolates right now too. i'm being a little mean by keeping my brother awake so that he can be the brave one to company me to the kitchen. i'm not afraid of the dark or anything, ok? just afraid of lizards and cockroaches.

i should be gone now, for my chocolate treats! ((:

i miss my bf too.

malaysia trip went smooth and fine. minus the part where it took us 4 hours to reach my aunt's place. yes, 4 hours. to make it worse, the migraine decided to kick in. so many bus rides just to get to a convenient place in order to cab down to my aunt's place. much regrets of how i couldn't take up the offer that boyfriend placed. stay with him throughout his working hours then head down to dinner and elsewhere. this kind of offers don't usually happen, it's like miracles. =P
at the end of the day, going to malaysia wasn't that bad either. my new-born baby nephew is like the cutest thing, temptations to bite his cheeks off. i also fell in love with this 4-month old baby girl, named, Mithra. she was extremely cute and the way she fell asleep in my arms. angelic.
then again, babies are only cute, angelic, easy till they start crawling/walking, worse still talking.
i'm still not changing my views on children. they are devils. and no, i wasn't a devil when i was young. i was one of the easiest kids to handle. =)
my grandmother went on a mini vacation since it's the one-week holiday.
it means, my brothers and i have the whole house to ourselves till my mum gets back home.
i've planned to ask boyfriend to join us for one of these days.
other than that, it also means, more housework. ):
i'm dreading all these house chores but there's no way out.

what more.
boyfriend bought me something but refuses to tell me what it is.
nasri says, it's called 'make the heart itchy' tactic.
i do love surprises, just the waiting part. yes, it sucks.



having you in my life... makes everything so special & beautiful...

i had the whole house to myself for about three hours.
and the feeling is so whoa, it's like finally you get some peace.
yet awhile later, i got bored. i realised, i constantly need people around me.
somehow, it keeps me entertained.

yesterday.
boyfriend and i decided to do some shopping.
it was more of me dragging him along for the Body Shop sale at Suntec.
gawd, the place was packed. and i couldn't even squeeze through those people even though i'm so small. we managed to buy some shower gels, body butter, facials and perfume. before heading to the sale, we caught the movie 'Marley and Me'. i was literally weeping towards the end. i am an emotional person, okay? and i hate sad endings. if you love animals, especially cute doggies, do go catch the movie. it's worth the money and the time taken. (:

so after the sale, we went back to marina square to have dinner at pizza hut.
there was this new 'Japanese Cherry Blossom' edition at the Body Sop outlet at marina square. couldn't bring myself to resist the temptation. so i swiped the credit card again. less than an hour and 100 dollars gone.
i really need a career that pays me extremely well in the future, at least to support my expenses. (: dinner at pizza hut was love. boyfriend was extremely hyper and loony throughout the whole dinner.

i'll be going to our neighboring country, Malaysia, tomorrow.
and i'll be back before the day ends. pathetic.

&& MY BROTHER JUST WON A PSP, now he has two PSPs!!! *pfft*

also, i just finished cooking dinner for the family ((:

now i'm actually wondering when would my body clock return to its norm.
i'm kind of tired sleeping at wee hours and waking up in the unreasonable late noons.
it may seem like a perfect slacking life, but now as the days go by, there's nothing to do anymore.
facebook, movies and videos online, games; i'm bored of everything.

this is where i start ranting about how i wish i had more money.
why does money always have to be the issue. grr.
i need new sandals, on a separate note. the one that i've been using might give way anytime soon.
& the sudden urge to go on a picnic with shakthee, rosey and praveena.
also chopping off a few inches of my hair soon. (boyfriend, i know you aren't going to allow but it's called chop off the split ends and have healthy beautiful hair)

not to mention, my phone's going bonkers.
it decides to shut down by itself all the time, and lag extremely at the point where i'm furiously texting boyfriend.

I'M BORED.BORED.BORED.
i wish boyfriend didn't have to work, then throughout the night we could talk and boredom wouldn't be this bad. i'm missing you already.



sometimes, she's just too protective over us. which is good and am not complaining a bit about that. then again, with that protectiveness comes the nagging and tons of shouting/yelling.
that's the part we hate the most, why wouldn't you care to realise. blogging is someone's privacy and at the age of thirteen, boys have their fun in many ways. what are you going to do stop them from having their fun outside this house? times have changed, we are all growing up. please don't yell.

rainy season + unemployment + a super cosy room.
it only results in difficulty to wake up in the morning.
not even close to noon, i only manage to get out of bed around three in the afternoons.
and i love my room. one very good reason to why i should stay put in singapore.

i woke up just in time to have a very late lunch, catch up with rosey a little and get ready to leave for tuition.
i never made it for tuition by the way, thanks to boyfriend and his temptations.
canceled the tuition with the stupidest excuse, fever and made plans to meet him.
spent some quality time till 9 before he sent me back home.
yes, again, he sent me home. ((: my boyfriend can be such a darling.


picture time. (:



he's everything to me. he's perfect for me.
But the best part of all... is that he loves me!
i ♥ you, sivashankar.

it's been long since the a proper post.
all those emotional turmoil long gone and i hope it doesn't return.
the lightness that lingers around makes me sleep peacefully.

the little updates that i can remember.

mugi and i went for Jason Mraz's concert at the Singapore Indoor Stadium.
and i loved the concert; jason mraz is awesome!! (:
after the concert, boyfriend appeared at Kallang Leisure Park.
yes, i miss that god damn place. i miss kallang river too!!
so, i decided to be a good friend and walk mugi to the bus stop.
and for being a good friend, god decided to shower me with blessings in the form of heavy rain.
we were drenched, stuck there. thanks to inconsiderate people who refused to move in the bus, and everyone else who were waiting for cab too.
since getting back to bedok seemed impossible, we took bus 16 going towards bukit merah and alighted at dhoby ghaut.
boyfriend was being an extreme sweetpie by not whining for being drenched and having to send me home. he usually whines for the slightest things. :P

i blew my handphone bill again. and am still not sure of what the outcome might be.

my dad had a small talk with me regarding poly and whatever so the future has in store for me.

tuition with the three kids, i must say, it can be tedious.
15 mins to draw a model for one word problem!!!
dear god, please bless me with endless amount of patience.

and i don't think there's anything else which deserves much attention.
everyday is like a routine now. sleep, eat, housework, laptop, sleep again.

i miss each one of my friend.
right now, nasri is entertaining me, and it only reminds me that we all need to meet up pretty soon.



baby, i love you, and only you.

lately, all that lingers around is depression and sorrow.
and no matter how much i try to let go.
it keeps coming back.