400th post.

stuck at the airport since 6.15am. thanks to the flight delay. indian airlines, so well known for all these delays. i still vividly remember 10 years ago, the same indian airline delayed for longer hours. much worse, i was stuck at the airport in india then. so i'm not complaning now, cause i had free breakfast, am using the free internet service and i will probably play the xbox 360 after this.

oh wait, a new announcement. flight delayed again. now to 12 noon. why am i not surprised.

so sleepy right now, i think i'll just find a comfortable spot to cuddle myself and take a nap.

wheee. india's going to be so exciting. mummy and i made a shopping list already ((:

oh, and i forgot to bring my handphone charger so there's no point if am going to get a prepaid card from india. my battery won't even last for the next half an hour.

blabbers.blabbers.

boyfriend, i miss you. :)

in less than 7 hours, i'll be flying in the mid air to india.
as much as am really excited.
i don't know how to survive without your presence.
there's always a first time for everything, and this will be my first time.
i'm going to miss you. so much, that i'm already feeling that tinge of sadness this moment.
i love you, sweetheart. take care.

i'm posting this entry from school right now, cause i'm so sure that i'll be a busy bee when i reach home tonight. this will be probably the hundredth time i mention that am flying off tomorrow morning. my little escape to india ((: and i won't be around for the next two weeks. will only be back on the 13th of june. so if i've missed out on any special updates, please do inform me when am back ok?

it's going to be quite dreadful when i'm back. just to think of the housework that needs to be done. oh god. save me. and when i return, i've got a test due too. i won't have much time to study either cause of work.

HIGHLIGHT. haruna is a few hundred dollars richer today. ((: wheeeeeeeeee~ then again, all the expenses are flocking in too.

i hope boyfriend will be on time later. yes, he's picking me up from school. and i'm still clueless about what we are doing or where we are going.

and now. i will bid my farewell to all of you. i love you guys. and i will miss all of you.
2 weeks, and i hope it will fly pass quick.
love ya'll ((: xoxo.



it feels so right, yet so wrong at the same time. i know that this feeling will fade away soon. but how soon will it be. i don't want this insecurity to kill me within.

i'm not as simple as i seem to be.

the only reason i'm posting an entry is to keep this blog alive. other than that, i don't have much updates to share. it's like life's so routinized now; actually it has always been this way. but now it's just more, rigid, i should say. work. school. work. housework. it falls in this order throughout the 7 days. i shouldn't complain. cause now, i don't feel useless anymore. and i don't have the need to rot at home any longer. plus when the cash flows in, who can resist this.

then again, work's getting a little more mundane each day. and on friday, it was the worst. my supervisor wasn't around so it was like a free period you have in secondary schools. we were all just lazing around. chucking in lemon biscuits, talking on and on. we also picked up rough pieces of paper to play bingo and some word game. i had to be such a smart alex to leave the rough paper lying near the scanning pile, now it's stuck somewhere in the admist of the scanning pile. i tried searching, so did my kind colleagues. it's no where to be found. hopefully i'll find it on monday.

i think i'll apply for half day on monday too. i need to head down to school to submit my edusave form, apparently cause they need the original form with the signatures on it. the nuthead at the counter told me that it was fine to fax it over.

oh yea. highlight will also be that, RP sent an letter to my dad due to my poor attendance. i only missed two lessons. i thought it was supposed to be something like, you miss school thrice a week and there'll be a letter sent. oh well, a whole new change in the system. which also means, i can't leave class halfway through this wednesday. cause my faci will award me with a F. i'm left with no choice but to meet boyfriend after school.

you see, since am leaving on thursday morning, and i don't think it'll be a good idea for boyfriend to send me off at the airport. i really want to spend the little time left on wednesday with him. i guess i'll make do with the few hours after school.

lately, mummy and i have been having a very fruitful yet disturbing conversation. it only leaves me more confused.

oh well, that's pretty much summarizes life right now.

i'm quite hyped up about the trip to india. more of i can't wait actually. i've been an obdient child and packed all my clothes already. only the essential items left to be chucked in. and off am gone on thursday! ((:

but i'm going to miss you so much. it's going to be hard.

i'm too caught up between work, school and my little escape to india. to those who realise my absence in the virtual world, i'm not hiding anywhere. just too worn out to hog on to the laptop any longer.

there's school tomorrow, grrr. on a brighter note, my dad gave me $$ to get myself two new pairs of shoes. ((:

last saturday, was so much of fun and love. caught angels and demons with boyfriend, praveena and raj. and then the usual day out as planned. boyfriend and i ended up having a mini war in between, but it was all solved. tsk, i know i know. i'm petty and complexed :P i'm too lazy to post up any pictures. then on sunday, before parting on our ways, boyfriend and i had lunch together. if only there was more outings like that. oh wait, here comes the part... if only i had money!

oh payday, oh payday! where are you?

boyfriend found a more permanent job too, which means lesser meetings already.

if you realised, this was a very redundant entry.

thank you all for reading (:
i miss everyone. and i love all of you :)



there's not a second, you leave my thoughts.

work isn't as dreadful as i thought it would be. i got accustomed to it within three days. now, i don't feel like a dead chicken after 8 hours of work. my colleges are really nice, we talk about all kind of things to keep ourselves entertained during work. but it doesn't beat the chats with rosey, nasri, nessa and cs. and well, to sum up about work, i love my job and i can't wait for my payday.

again, i skipped school. cause i was really worn out. i promise myself, i will attend school regularly from next week onwards. yes, yes.. seems familiar right. you would have seen it my past entries. but, this time the promise will be real, cause there's no temptations :P

also, i'll be flying off to india in another two weeks. the trip has got me hyped up, who can resists endless shopping sprees!!!! ((: on the other hand, i will have to leave boyfriend here alone. i'm worried too.

on saturday, i'll be spending time with boyfriend. will be meeting veena and raj too. really can't wait. it has been some time since we had our usual sessions.


everything happens for a reason, and in the end, it'll be all for good.


you keep me happy like noone else will ever do.
i love you.

important announcement up. MISS. HARUNA ELANGOVAN is FINALLY EMPLOYED. yes, yes. after intensive job hunting, am employed by Gleneagles Hospital as an admin assistant. i started work last thursday. and i was hired without even an interview cause they needed people. i'll be spending 10 months of my life there, so i'm considered as a full time staff with pro-rated benefits and salary. it isn't a taxing job, except the part where i've got to carry super huge heavy boxes. there are like 119 boxes of medical records to be cleared. :x also, the office is so super cold, the jacket doesn't really help. and it turns my fingers iced-cold.

then there was school, which i skipped to visit boyfriend at his workplace as early as 9am. i reached his workplace earlier than i would have reached school. it also means, i have to resist the temptations of skipping school from next week onwards.

also caught horsemen on friday. not too bad, i must say. only goes to show how important is it for a parent to spend time with their children, or it'll drive the kids crazy.

nothing much that deserves the attention here.

i can feel my moodswings taking control over me.
sometimes, it's so hard to figure out how to react.


words aren't enough to tell you, i love you.

i've become too difficult to be with. i realise. it's become much harder to control my mood swings and emotions.

i'm just too sorry, that you are stuck with all these. everything that you have to go through and not be appreciated. i'm sorry, but it isn't the way you think of it as to be. i'm sorry.

and now, since boyfriend's got his new phone, there's no point saving any more. i'll just use the money to pay off two months' handphone bill. something which i really wanted to get him. that tinge of sadness, i'll get over it.

this crappy feeling, i just need to get away to set my mind at ease. i'm not sure why do i behave this way. i hate that i have become too dependant, so much that. when you're not around, anger and sadness builds up.

i realised there isn't any flow in this post. but it'll do.

hopefully, the job offer still stands till tomorrow. then i will be so much busier, it'll be easy to keep my minds off things. then again, if i were to start working, there won't be any time for anything else. i hate this.


it's not there isn't love for you.. it's just the insecurity that builds in me.
i do love you, the same way.