Wednesday, December 26, 2007, 9:43 PM

I want to tell you "I love you" one more time. I want to see your smile light up the room, filling it with such an energy it makes me feel alive. I desperatly wished I could hold you, kiss you, feel you again. I wanted to share the tribulations and joys of life with you, but now all I yearn for is the pain to stop, for these tears to stop falling. All I wish and pray I could do is turn back the clock to that fateful hour when we said our goodbyes, and convince you to stay. As time goes on, the clock becomes my enemy, a constant reminder of the hours, the minutes I am here without you. With every tiny tick of the minute hand, my heart fragments a little more, and the shards get washed away by the river of tears that flows so freely. I wanted to tell you "I love you" one more time, but instead I stood there looking into the cold earth, and say my final goodbye.
it didn't go well today. i couldn't win over ur heart. i couldn't make u stay. i felt it was pointless, when i realized that u had firmly made up ur mind.
i'm moving on. it hurts to. but that's how it has to be. everywhere i go, ur thoughts gush back into ma mind. i tell everyone, "am ok. it happened for the best". but deep inside, i yearn for you.
i'm preparing to heal ma wounds.
don't worry sweetheart. you didn't break me. you destroyed me. && i still love u.
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