i'm feeling pretty lost right now.

and it's all my fault.

if only i had been more responsible.

it may be the slightest issue to worry about but i ain't taking any risk here.

i should have been more thoughtful. but no, apparently, i was stuck in my own 'perfect' world and now am worrying about facing the consequences.

i don't want to be like this any longer.

i have decided to switch to prepaid.

and yes, i did weigh both the pros and cons.

the extensive plus point. avoiding all the rants at the month end.

on the other hand, i have to start saving up more.

and i have also decided to pay up my own handphone bill - the full amount.

it's only fair that i do cause i was the cause of it. not my parents.

am supposed to be out right now, having dinner with my secondary school friends. i decided to be conscience-striken and stay home to repent.