you are getting sick and tired of getting hurt over and over again. you want to end it all cause you know that you don't deserve the pain any longer. but the only thing that keeps you going without worrying about the pain is your love for him. i keep telling you, you're simply blinded and i wonder how much more can you endure. all in the name of love. i admire how much you go through just to keep it all going, at the same time, i wish you would stop and think. you don't deserve this. you deserve better, much better. at the end of the day, i know it's easy to stand aside and tell you what to do. it's always easy to just watch what's happening cause you'll never know how it is like to be in the shoes of that person.

no one will ever know how i feel. my life may not seem as complicated, but i do go through my own ups and downs.


&& yes, i was longing for the holidays, and now that the holidays are here. i wish school didn't end because i miss school. i miss my friends and break times. i miss class and the fun we had during the last week of school. but i guess it won't be that bad cause FYP has started so i still get to see most of them when i go back to school for lab.

on a random note, i wish my parents printed money or something. or i can pluck money from the tree across my room. i want to shop so badly and it doesn't help that i have finished my allowance and it's not even the end of the month. so tell me, how am i going to survive when i have so many things planned ahead. *mummy, help me!!*

ok i lost my train of thoughts, thanks to my best friend.




i.miss.you.