if i had stayed in my room any longer, i swear i would have gone crazy. i managed to get erica to hang out with me, i seriously owe her one. although i never got to tell her what i was going through, just walking around and enjoying the fresh air helped a lot. and then again, i found myself dragging my feet back home, i don't want to be stuck here in my room. just for the time being. i want to be somewhere where i can be at peace without thinking beyond any necessity.

i'm not sure what went wrong, but i'm quite sure that all the problems that are being directed at me is the cause of my sudden downturn. i can't avoid these people because they are my friends. tell me how do i say no in a nice way when i hear my friend crying over the phone.

i just hope everything would fall in place. i have had enough of hearing cries every night.
and if only i could be stronger.

somehow, it does feel like i'm making something out of nothing.
if only i could simply go with the flow.


on a random note, i really want to watch 'forgetting sarah marshall'.
anyone who's willing to go out with me, feel free to let me know. =)