the eve of my 19th. there's around 45 mins. from just legal 18, i'll be turning 19. that last year of teen, before entering adulthood. before all the responsibilities come falling on you.

i still remember how my 18th year started. roughly a week before, my uncle passed away and no one in the family celebrated, let alone a proper cheerful wish. on the day of my birthday, i didn't leave my room, not even the bed, cause i was so sick. sick to the extent, i couldn't do anything but to just sleep. and then like two hours before the special day ended, my two bestfriends came knocking on my door with a cake. that's a memory which is close to my heart. and let's skip what happened exactly 3 weeks later.

and yeap, in less than an hour. my 19th will begin and i'm thankful to say. it'll be a happy and memorable one. with my family, friends, boyfriend.

& am still depressed that am getting older no matter what.

besides that, i'm a happy kid. =)