she will try to contain her emotions within her control.
she will keep that needed distance to free herself from deep thoughts.
she will try her very best not to miss him this much anymore.
because the more she misses him and yearns to see him, it all comes falling down on her.
she will keep her mind busy with school and work as soon as possible.
she will not spill irrational words whenever temper or disappointment clouds her thoughts and judgments.
she will give in and be accommodating to family, boyfriend and friends when needed.

and i hope, it all happens.

it's not wrong to miss someone this much, is it?

a short vacation would do good right now.
i'll most likely spend the next weekend at my god mum's place.
since we both miss each other tons. and i don't want to cheat her feelings any longer.

am off to bed already.
the earliest ever since school closed.
hopefully all those thoughts don't come rushing in tonight and i'll be able to sleep peacefully.