i've become too difficult to be with. i realise. it's become much harder to control my mood swings and emotions.

i'm just too sorry, that you are stuck with all these. everything that you have to go through and not be appreciated. i'm sorry, but it isn't the way you think of it as to be. i'm sorry.

and now, since boyfriend's got his new phone, there's no point saving any more. i'll just use the money to pay off two months' handphone bill. something which i really wanted to get him. that tinge of sadness, i'll get over it.

this crappy feeling, i just need to get away to set my mind at ease. i'm not sure why do i behave this way. i hate that i have become too dependant, so much that. when you're not around, anger and sadness builds up.

i realised there isn't any flow in this post. but it'll do.

hopefully, the job offer still stands till tomorrow. then i will be so much busier, it'll be easy to keep my minds off things. then again, if i were to start working, there won't be any time for anything else. i hate this.


it's not there isn't love for you.. it's just the insecurity that builds in me.
i do love you, the same way.