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Saturday, July 11, 2009, 4:03 PM
surprising, how i thought i could be stronger and get through this fucked feeling without shedding a single tear. i failed myself. it'll never happen that way. unless one day, i grow so tired of everything and just fuck it all.

my heart feels so heavy, there's so much to tell and write. then again, words aren't enough to express this agony. i know i'll be fine soon. but this will always remain behind. it will never stop lingering around, i can tell.

i have so much to learn, i just don't know why i choose not to and be this way. how inconsiderate of myself.

and i don't know what else there is.