Such Anger & Bitterness
Saturday, October 27, 2012, 2:52 AM
I harbour so much of anger and bitterness in me. It has been so long since I found that happiness that lightens my heart and brightens my day.
This anger and bitterness, it is a mechanism to push people away from me. Even those whom I treasure so much. I have not found a way to switch this mechanism off and it only seems to building layers after layer, growing and overwhelming me.
I hold grudges against small arguments, I blow it up out of proportions. And awhile later I sit back and regret why did I even do it. I cry about it. When it could all have been avoided and forgiven since the start.
If I told you that I don't know why I do this, it feels so unjustified.
How can someone be so angry all the time?
But honestly I don't know why, why I hold so much of anger in me.
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